Friday, July 5, 2013

And they wake up the next morning as always

I walk up Beverveien towards the Metro station by the shopping centre. It is twelve o'clock. Over the rooftops I can hear the bells ringing after church. It's still cold, but the sky is all blue and the sun is thawing the mud on the road, and it leaves grey-brown stripes on my shoes, and outde the station there are shards of glass and bloodstains on the tarmac. They are pink and pale after the night. On the corner in front of Stallen, which used to be Glasmagasinet, people are looking at the display they have seen a hundred times before. They're pretending to be out for a Sunday stroll. But I know them and know they are circling the centre waiting for Geir's bar to open at one. They just can't stay at home any longer and keep their fists in their pockets to hid their shaking hands. I feel like yelling at them, for Christ's sake pull yourselves together, and stay out of my way! I know they won't pull themselves together, it's too late. They are old, their days are over, everything they have known is gone, all the things they could do, and now here they stand, scraping their feet against the ground, letting the clock tick them closer to their first gulp, and then they'll sit and drink until their bodies calm down and will talk rubbish about everything being so wonderful, and when evening comes, they have to go home, and so they fall asleep early and hope their dreams won't be too bad, and then they wake up the next morning as always. 
--Per Petterson, It's Fine by Me (1992)

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